The College Years - Rivers in Egypt

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 10:47 am

"Would I be making this big a deal out of it if I wasn't interested?"

by **Nailah Weaver** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 10:52 am

"No, probably not... I'm sorry. I like you Sam, but..."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 10:53 am

"...aye. So that's that."

by **Nailah Weaver** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 10:59 am

"Right. That's that..."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 11:01 am

"Because... anything I do at this point is just going to make things worse, aye?"

by **Nailah Weaver** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 11:05 am

"E-exactly." she says, her voice catching for a moment while she tries to keep a cap on her thoughts, all of which seem to be revolving about how things could get 'worse' right now.

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 11:07 am

"I'm sorry, Nailah."

She headed for the door to the room.

"I think I need some air."

by **Nailah Weaver** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 11:14 am

What are you doing? Stop her! Don't let her leave!

"Sam..."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 11:16 am

"Look, I... it's just too much for me right now. You're being so guarded around me, and I can't help but feel I've hurt you somehow."

by **Nailah Weaver** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 11:21 am

"You haven't! This is just... this isn't what was supposed to happen! It's wrong because it's not what I've seen! But then why does it feel so good the way you look at me sometimes and this just makes no sense..." it bursts out of her. "This can't be what happens because it's not supposed to be what happens!"

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 11:23 am

"What did you see? What's supposed to happen?"

by **Nailah Weaver** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 11:28 am

"I told you. Everything was supposed to be perfectly normal and right but I never met him and now everything is strange and wrong..." And somewhere around that point the tears start. "I just wanted one thing in my life that's normal."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 11:32 am

"Aye, you told me. And it wasn't... it wasn't "him" in what you told me, but you really want it to be, don't you?"

"Which makes me... wrong."

by **Nailah Weaver** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 11:39 am

"You're not. You're everything but wrong! It just... it was the last chance for something normal..."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 12:22 pm

"...and this is what I meant about making it worse."

by **Nailah Weaver** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 12:27 pm

"It's not your fault. How could I possibly blame you for this..."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 12:31 pm

"If I'd just... kept my damned mouth shut, I wouldn't have made you cry."

by **Nailah Weaver** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 12:36 pm

"At least it's out..."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 12:37 pm

"For all the good it does us."

by **Nailah Weaver** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 12:43 pm

"No going back to how things were before?"

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 12:46 pm

"I... I'll try, Nailah."

by **Nailah Weaver** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 12:53 pm

"Because I liked hanging out with you. And flying over the city. And listening to each others worries over coffee. And... holding your hand... And I liked the way you looked at me, even if it's scary..."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 12:59 pm

"What... makes you think all of that would go away?"

by **Nailah Weaver** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 1:12 pm

"I... I don't know..."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 1:17 pm

"I mean... I can live with the disappointment. I'm a big girl, aye?"

by **Nailah Weaver** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 1:31 pm

"No I mean..." she trails off, not really sure what she means.

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 1:32 pm

"Well you want it to be like it was... before I asked, aye?"

by **Nailah Weaver** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 1:48 pm

"Just... without the awkwardness."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 1:49 pm

"And like I said, I'll... I'll try, aye?"

by **Nailah Weaver** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 1:57 pm

"I'm sorry... I know this must be hard on you."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 1:58 pm

"It's just... you know what all of that, without the awkwardness, sounds like?"

by **Nailah Weaver** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 2:08 pm

She looks like she's about to say something but maybe her denial isn't that strong and she just nods ever so slightly.

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 2:11 pm

"And... are you okay with that?"

by **Nailah Weaver** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 2:17 pm

"I was until today..."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 2:18 pm

"That's why I just... shouldn't have."

by **Nailah Weaver** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 2:26 pm

"Just... just because we pretend it isn't there doesn't mean it isn't..." she says, half sounding like she's coming to this realization herself just now.

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 2:30 pm

"...aye. And it doesn't mean that I don't still want to... aye."

by **Nailah Weaver** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 2:37 pm

"I just... as scary as it is, I'm more scared of not having... whatever this is."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 2:40 pm

"...aye. Maybe... we both need to clear our heads a bit."

by **Nailah Weaver** » Fri Jun 29, 2012 2:51 pm

She nods. "Maybe some air would be good."

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